Watched a musical at Althouse (Faculty of Education). Seussical the Musical. At first I thought it was just a bit silly. A musical on a little kids thing? Please...
But it was good. It was really good. I've always believed music brings colour to life. The AV was a little skippy at times, but that's alright. Some of the chorograph was well practice. Singing was good, though I didn't manage to catch everything...wish I had the script, but it's not like high school I guess, where I'd be able to watch the same play 8 times over during practice XD
My reading today (should've been yesterday, but MenCell went long)...
"This is how you are to eat it: with your cloak tucked into your belt, your sandals on your feet and your staff in your hand. eat it in haste; it is the LORD's Passover." - Exodus 12.11
Some reason this stood out to me. Just has such a powerful underfeeling behind a single verse... Current events has driven me to wonder...will I still run the race even if no one is watching? Even if there is no finish line? No prize at the end of the day? No one to run with? Such is the demands.
As much as I want to say I'm done here, it's not that easy. As much as I want to say I've conquered it, it's not that easy. As much as I tell myself no, it's not that easy. I suppose I could just smile and keep on walking. It's hasn't been that good. But it hasn't been that bad either. He is merciful. I can't walk enough with you. But I can always pray for you. Prayin and prayin...
Saturday, February 24, 2007
Thursday, February 22, 2007
Cognitive Dissonance
It's a funny thing, the cognitive mind. Somehow it has managed to defeat itself...
I was told I think too much sometimes. I tell myself I don't think enough. The way I see it, everything can be explained and placed into some framework...Piaget's schema theory, perhaps. Afterall, who would disagree with structure? Wouldn't everything be so much better if we could understand what's going on, the thoughts we have, the choices we made? If we could understand ourselves and the people around us? And what better way to do it then with something we can picture...imagine...and hold in our minds? What better tool to use but logic? I mean, one could argue that logic was granted to us...what a waste if we don't use it...check out what this guy said:
"My deeply held belieft is that if a God, anything like the traditional sorts, exists, our curiosity and intelligence are provided by such a God. We would be unappreciative of those gifts...if we suppressed our passion to explore the universe and ourselves." - Carl Sagan, 1979
Cool eh? I totally agree. I think because I can. Schemas? good. Structure? good. Understanding? good. Logic? good. It's all good. Good good good.
So why are we still screwed? Why do we still don't understand ourselves and others? It's kind of funny...the more I read about PSYCH101 last term, the more I realize how folly the mind is. How easily we can misremember...and misrecall... how easily we fall to assumptions and orders. How we can so easily look around the plank in our eyes... the mind is a powerful tool. Too bad a tool is only as useful as the skill of the wielder.
So using science, it pretty much defeated the hopes that the mind can understand itself fully. I came to that realization earlier today. I could only understand so much. I can only bend so much with scientific cognitive-ness. As good as it is...it's not enough.
But I don't want to believe that there are no answers to the curiousity. CS Lewis wrote about how if there's a desire, there's probably something that is meant to meet that desire. So we need to augment more stuff into the picture. This verse came to mind:
"...Because you have seen me, you have believed; blessed are those who have not seen and yet have believed." - John 20.29
Do I have the answers? No. Will I ever get enough to be satisfied? Probably not, but that's not for me to decide. But that's what it takes to be faithful, I guess. To keep on walking, even when I don't know all the facts.
"If any of you lacks wisdom, he should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to him." - James 1.5
I was told I think too much sometimes. I tell myself I don't think enough. The way I see it, everything can be explained and placed into some framework...Piaget's schema theory, perhaps. Afterall, who would disagree with structure? Wouldn't everything be so much better if we could understand what's going on, the thoughts we have, the choices we made? If we could understand ourselves and the people around us? And what better way to do it then with something we can picture...imagine...and hold in our minds? What better tool to use but logic? I mean, one could argue that logic was granted to us...what a waste if we don't use it...check out what this guy said:
"My deeply held belieft is that if a God, anything like the traditional sorts, exists, our curiosity and intelligence are provided by such a God. We would be unappreciative of those gifts...if we suppressed our passion to explore the universe and ourselves." - Carl Sagan, 1979
Cool eh? I totally agree. I think because I can. Schemas? good. Structure? good. Understanding? good. Logic? good. It's all good. Good good good.
So why are we still screwed? Why do we still don't understand ourselves and others? It's kind of funny...the more I read about PSYCH101 last term, the more I realize how folly the mind is. How easily we can misremember...and misrecall... how easily we fall to assumptions and orders. How we can so easily look around the plank in our eyes... the mind is a powerful tool. Too bad a tool is only as useful as the skill of the wielder.
So using science, it pretty much defeated the hopes that the mind can understand itself fully. I came to that realization earlier today. I could only understand so much. I can only bend so much with scientific cognitive-ness. As good as it is...it's not enough.
But I don't want to believe that there are no answers to the curiousity. CS Lewis wrote about how if there's a desire, there's probably something that is meant to meet that desire. So we need to augment more stuff into the picture. This verse came to mind:
"...Because you have seen me, you have believed; blessed are those who have not seen and yet have believed." - John 20.29
Do I have the answers? No. Will I ever get enough to be satisfied? Probably not, but that's not for me to decide. But that's what it takes to be faithful, I guess. To keep on walking, even when I don't know all the facts.
"If any of you lacks wisdom, he should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to him." - James 1.5
Tuesday, February 20, 2007
Graduating year of 2007
University of Waterloo Chinese Christian Fellowship
Graduating from Undergraduates: Betty Chan. Connie Chan. Alexander Lam. Kevin Leung. Vanessa Li. Calla Suen. Karen Wong. Paul Yu. Pamilia. Kenneth.
University of Western Ontario Asian Christian Fellowship
Graduating from Undergraduates: Shelby Chung, Jonathan Tong, Enoch Tang, Theresa Wong, Eldon, Sheryl
Graduating from Masters: Justin Liu, Gloria Sham, Heidi Wu
Blah. Why did it have to be on the same day...
Updating list as I go...don't know everyone graduating or ppl's last names -_-
No, today at work hasn't been a productive day. lol
Graduating from Undergraduates: Betty Chan. Connie Chan. Alexander Lam. Kevin Leung. Vanessa Li. Calla Suen. Karen Wong. Paul Yu. Pamilia. Kenneth.
University of Western Ontario Asian Christian Fellowship
Graduating from Undergraduates: Shelby Chung, Jonathan Tong, Enoch Tang, Theresa Wong, Eldon, Sheryl
Graduating from Masters: Justin Liu, Gloria Sham, Heidi Wu
Blah. Why did it have to be on the same day...
Updating list as I go...don't know everyone graduating or ppl's last names -_-
No, today at work hasn't been a productive day. lol
Visiting from Waterloo
No. I really wasn't doing it for your sake. I stood there for my own sake...
I was just thinking of what I heard at Monday Men Cell. It's gotten to be alot unstructured after Justin canned the book. We just discuss random issues and whatnot. Not bad. Had a collision (good one this time...for once), of the occasional "good old days".
So really, I could talk about self-esteem, and not measuring yourself by other people's ruler...actually, until I talked to Alex today, I didn't even realize I was making the same mistake that I blasted Sam for...
So with Justin Liu at MC-Monday and again today with Alex Lam (Joanna and them were visiting Heidi, I guess. A lot of visiting going on these days. Alex tagged along. I had a 2.5hr lunch with him -_- will be work for a long time today...). Some reason, the issue of girls and relationship came up at both times. Even though the 722 sermon has already set firm my ideas, the things that were discussed were of other things...
Waiki said to Alex: No Relationship. Committee demands all the time one can spend on it...always so much to be done I guess. But Alex had a good point. We're only in CCF for so long. We're able to meet with friends who come from all these different places...different faculties...different people...only for so long...and relationships take up so much time (at least, they better be. That girl of yours deserves your time. Though I don't think I'll run into any of those cases in CCF...stupid high school...anyways)...we'll only be in CCF...ACF...university...for so long. When you have to choose, you know (at least, you better be!) you'd choose your significant other instead of CCF. And that's just how it works. To pick up a relationship, CCF must become less in your life. What I think? Issues like boys and girls, relationship and dating? They can come afterwards. But that's just my belief. Just in case dating people harp on me for blasting them. -_-
Don't serve out of a need? Maybe...but what if the need was shown to you by Him? I guess...it's difficult to apply someone else's paradigm to my own life. When I hear other people say "oh, God said this to me" and I'm sitting here, thinking to myself that I have no idea what they're talking about...I too am measuring myself with their ruler. Does God reach out to everyone the same way? Obviously not. Moses heard from Him directly. But Joseph was spoken to via dreams. Mary, through angels. Esther, though her friend. The apostles though Jesus and the Holy Spirit. David, though the prophet Nathan. Saul, through the prophet Samuel. Josiah, though...some other prophet. -_-. Etcetcetc.
But I heard this said the other day. The pressure of liking someone is so much that sometimes you just gotta let it out. Tell the girl. What happens after will happen. But just let it out. Really, I used to believe that. Those who know me well enough from back home would understand. I thought that if I had gotten that "no" from their own lips instead of just in my imagination, I'll be able to move on easier. But isn't that copping out? Arint you just pushing the weight to handle all that onto their shoulders? What did she do? She shouldn't have to handle your emotions. If you like the girl, shouldn't you be looking out for her? How selfish is it, to want to vent out on her, especially if you don't care or want anything to happen out of that? Suck it up. And if it's hard? Well, it better be hard...it just means the feeling is real. And if it's too hard? Well. That's why video games are invented. Be a man.
I've talked about a wide range of stuff with Alex today. And it was good. But I think I'm still as confused as I was when I first sat down with him. Trying to figure out things right now...I think, the biggest thing I can get out of today's talk with Alex is...
Have Faith.
And never cut God from the picture.
Random thoughts:
Need and passion. Truth and Spirit. Sitting together in silence. Worship and praise. Unity. Prayer. Alone and together. People who are dear to me, both in London/Waterloo...and everywhere else.
I was just thinking of what I heard at Monday Men Cell. It's gotten to be alot unstructured after Justin canned the book. We just discuss random issues and whatnot. Not bad. Had a collision (good one this time...for once), of the occasional "good old days".
So really, I could talk about self-esteem, and not measuring yourself by other people's ruler...actually, until I talked to Alex today, I didn't even realize I was making the same mistake that I blasted Sam for...
So with Justin Liu at MC-Monday and again today with Alex Lam (Joanna and them were visiting Heidi, I guess. A lot of visiting going on these days. Alex tagged along. I had a 2.5hr lunch with him -_- will be work for a long time today...). Some reason, the issue of girls and relationship came up at both times. Even though the 722 sermon has already set firm my ideas, the things that were discussed were of other things...
Waiki said to Alex: No Relationship. Committee demands all the time one can spend on it...always so much to be done I guess. But Alex had a good point. We're only in CCF for so long. We're able to meet with friends who come from all these different places...different faculties...different people...only for so long...and relationships take up so much time (at least, they better be. That girl of yours deserves your time. Though I don't think I'll run into any of those cases in CCF...stupid high school...anyways)...we'll only be in CCF...ACF...university...for so long. When you have to choose, you know (at least, you better be!) you'd choose your significant other instead of CCF. And that's just how it works. To pick up a relationship, CCF must become less in your life. What I think? Issues like boys and girls, relationship and dating? They can come afterwards. But that's just my belief. Just in case dating people harp on me for blasting them. -_-
Don't serve out of a need? Maybe...but what if the need was shown to you by Him? I guess...it's difficult to apply someone else's paradigm to my own life. When I hear other people say "oh, God said this to me" and I'm sitting here, thinking to myself that I have no idea what they're talking about...I too am measuring myself with their ruler. Does God reach out to everyone the same way? Obviously not. Moses heard from Him directly. But Joseph was spoken to via dreams. Mary, through angels. Esther, though her friend. The apostles though Jesus and the Holy Spirit. David, though the prophet Nathan. Saul, through the prophet Samuel. Josiah, though...some other prophet. -_-. Etcetcetc.
But I heard this said the other day. The pressure of liking someone is so much that sometimes you just gotta let it out. Tell the girl. What happens after will happen. But just let it out. Really, I used to believe that. Those who know me well enough from back home would understand. I thought that if I had gotten that "no" from their own lips instead of just in my imagination, I'll be able to move on easier. But isn't that copping out? Arint you just pushing the weight to handle all that onto their shoulders? What did she do? She shouldn't have to handle your emotions. If you like the girl, shouldn't you be looking out for her? How selfish is it, to want to vent out on her, especially if you don't care or want anything to happen out of that? Suck it up. And if it's hard? Well, it better be hard...it just means the feeling is real. And if it's too hard? Well. That's why video games are invented. Be a man.
I've talked about a wide range of stuff with Alex today. And it was good. But I think I'm still as confused as I was when I first sat down with him. Trying to figure out things right now...I think, the biggest thing I can get out of today's talk with Alex is...
Have Faith.
And never cut God from the picture.
Random thoughts:
Need and passion. Truth and Spirit. Sitting together in silence. Worship and praise. Unity. Prayer. Alone and together. People who are dear to me, both in London/Waterloo...and everywhere else.
More randomnessness
I could be sleeping I guess. Been feeling tired throughout the day. But since I just ate a extremely heavy dinner (kids, don't eat dinner at midnight. Not very fun). Besides, I have to finish my PDEng, type up some collected notes and do my devos, not to mention prepare tomorrow's lunch. Since I've spent the last half an hour or so, jumping through people's blogs (lots of ACF ppl blog eh...), I felt some urge to write myself.
For some strange reason, my name at work isn't Jon. It's Russell, of Russell Peters fame. One of my co-workers (I guess he just watched it recently...) started calling me that on the first day of work, and it caught on. I'm known to everyone in the lab as Russell. -_- Well...better then my CCF name I guess...ah...it's nice to be free. lol.
Of course. How can one not think of the now famous "Hey, be a man" Chinese thing? So really. A random thought...what does it take to be a man. Interesting...more notes to compile. A topical study! This will be interesting...
Recent battles has not exactly been fun. But that's why it's a battle, and not a cruise, right? I've met another listener yesterday (well technically I met this person already, but the discovery of this trait...yeah). For some reason, knowing I have a comrade like this makes me a little happier. Just the knowledge that someone with the same role is pwning somewhere out there.
Is it possible to achieve higher state? It very much is. I'm seeing it being achieved. Always room to grow. Always room to keep going. But sometimes...you need to take a step backward in order to take two of them forward?
For some strange reason, my name at work isn't Jon. It's Russell, of Russell Peters fame. One of my co-workers (I guess he just watched it recently...) started calling me that on the first day of work, and it caught on. I'm known to everyone in the lab as Russell. -_- Well...better then my CCF name I guess...ah...it's nice to be free. lol.
Of course. How can one not think of the now famous "Hey, be a man" Chinese thing? So really. A random thought...what does it take to be a man. Interesting...more notes to compile. A topical study! This will be interesting...
Recent battles has not exactly been fun. But that's why it's a battle, and not a cruise, right? I've met another listener yesterday (well technically I met this person already, but the discovery of this trait...yeah). For some reason, knowing I have a comrade like this makes me a little happier. Just the knowledge that someone with the same role is pwning somewhere out there.
Is it possible to achieve higher state? It very much is. I'm seeing it being achieved. Always room to grow. Always room to keep going. But sometimes...you need to take a step backward in order to take two of them forward?
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