Saturday, August 25, 2007

Tracing...

Thoughout my random convos with people these days, someone said this to me...

but just don't be afraid
don't think you'll never be ready
don't think you don't deserve it

I found myself staring at those words for a while. They seem simple enough, words of encouragement. It's really easy to assess one self and become so fixuated on the flaws of self that it can be hard to see ourselves from someone else's point of view...each of these three lines reminds me of more things...retracing lessons I've learned before...

don't be afraid...
Joshua 1 quotes God, as He tells Joshua...

Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be terrified; do not be discouraged, for the LORD your God will be with you wherever you go.
- Joshua 1.9

This is a passage I quote alot. A passage I pray occasionally. It's so straightforward... don't be afraid. Why not? Because God is with you. I dunno about you, but that sounds like a pretty awesome promise. God is with you, wherever you go...

don't think you'll never be ready
The LORD said to [Moses], "Who gave man his mouth? Who makes him deaf or mute? Who gives him sight or makes him blind? Is it not I, the LORD ? Now go; I will help you speak and will teach you what to say."
- Exodus 4.11

I once heard a very deep meaning of humbleness. Humbleness is about being open-minded to listen to the opinion of others. It's not so much saying "oh, I'm no good at this."...Moses told God that he's not good enough to do the tasks he's being called to do. Is he not, then, imposing his opinion over God's? Obviously, from here, God says it's okay. God says Moses is ready. Even when Moses himself doesn't think he is up for the calling.

don't think you don't deserve it
The more we deal with people, the more difficult it becomes. The people we give advices to, the people we teach. The people we assist, the people we wave to. The tourist asking for instructions, the cashier you smile at when you leave...people are hard to deal with. We're called to sow seeds, often without seeing the results of it.

I dunno. This one is a hard one. The sentence merely suggests against absolutes, that it may be within your right to ask for afterall...There are many things I don't deserve (ie salvation) that I got anyway. There are many things I feel like I deserve (ie common sense in cooking) but I don't really feel that I have. As a seed sower, I dunno if it's my place to say I deserve to see some of the results of what I'm doing. But God's got a verse for this too...

[People mentioned in the Hebrews "hall of fame"] were all commended for their faith, yet none of them received what had been promised...
- Hebrews 11.39

No, perhaps I don't deserve to see the results. Moses, when he failed to follow orders, was denied entrance to the Promised Lands. Yet...at the end of Deuteronomy, the LORD showed him the whole land (Deut 34.1b). Really. At the end of the day, this point isn't really for me to say. It's all Him.

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